This week, and last week, have been incredible for me. God has really been showing up in huge ways, ways that I couldn’t have thought up or expected Him to. Throughout my experiences over the last couple weeks, I have to keep reminding myself that these things are happening because of God and not of me. I’ve somehow finally stepped out of the way so God can do what He does and loves to do.
As I was decompressing and praying through all the things that have happened and come together, a thought came to mind. “I want to be where You want me. I want to be where You are.” Being where God is and where He wants us to be is an incredible feeling. It never gets old or boring, and we never have to worry about His provision or will. But how do we know where He wants us to be, or where He is?
Early this summer, I began to feel as though there had to be more than what I was doing every day. I wasn’t just in a rut. I was feeling incredibly bored and increasingly frustrated, feelings that come with being outside the will of God. As I began praying about it, and throughout our vacation, I began sensing God telling me that what I was doing (career, mostly), wasn’t what He wanted from me. But of course, that left the question of “what DO You want me to be doing?” I knew I couldn’t just quit my job because we need my paycheck. So began the painful, frustrating process of praying and waiting.
Throughout this process of praying and waiting, God has shown me more of who He is and who He wants to be in my life and through me, if I will just step out of the way. He has shown me things I wouldn’t have seen or realized if I hadn’t been praying and waiting.
So I am left with the thought: “You want me to be where You are.” If I daily seek after and follow God, I will inevitably be right where He wants me, because I am seeking to be where He is.
I don’t know what the next few months, weeks, or even days hold. But I know that if I want to know where it is God wants me to be, I just need to seek Him and find Him.