My three-year-old is going through a “phase” (that’s what people say it is) where he wants to be completely independent, except on his terms. When he needs or wants help, he whines or begs for help. If I tell him no, that he needs to do something himself, he screams at me. These are things that he knows how to do, so he shouldn’t need help to do them. It’s frustrating and annoying because he becomes angry with me if I help him do something he wanted to do himself, and he becomes angry when I don’t help him do something, whether he asked for help or not. I am often to the point where I don’t know what to do, because it’s always the wrong decision.
As often happens after interactions with especially this particular child, I started to realize that often I act much the same way toward God as my son acts toward me. I want to do everything on my own, and only ask for help when I’m too tired or just don’t feel like doing something. I get angry or frustrated when things don’t go the way I want them to, I get annoyed or angry when God tells me no, or that I need to learn to work through something.
I’m so glad that God doesn’t throw His giant hands in the air, shake His head, and tell Jesus “You deal with her because I’ve had enough for one day.” I’m thankful for His never-ending grace, and how He is constantly making me new.
And I’m thankful that He gave me my beautiful, sweet, endearing, and (mostly) good-natured son. I’m even thankful for my son’s stubborn streak, because God uses it to teach me, while I’m teaching him, how to be better.